Please remind me to breathe.

SO much So fast. I guess I should start out by saying I never thought it would happen. I was sure that I was going to be moving next month to live with Brittany Zeiter and that was what my plan was. I didn't think that at the last moment this would really happen. I mean who am I? I am a no one. I went to a stupid college and never really tried I just did the bare minimum to get past. I am a poor white girl from the bible belt who was destined to work at a menial job for the rest of her life because the only person she allowed herself to love would never be able to love the person that she was. There are so many people out there who should have this and I was never on that list. But it seems as if someone has given up their bit of fate for me. Thank you so much whoever you are because even though I have never been more scared of anything in my life I have also never felt like there were so many possibilities before me. I don't know what this adventure shall bring to me. So far the only certain thing is that on September 6th 2008 at 10 am I will be leaving the United States of America and at 10:18 am on September 7th 2008 I will be finding my way to the bus station in Cologne to find a nice corner to sleep in until sometime on the 8th I catch a bus to an unknown city. There is so much to do between now and then however, first I have to get Erin Married. I mean someone needs to take care of her while I am gone. After that I need to finish off my mom's classroom and greet the parents so that she can pick up my cousins and then I will disappear I will have no phone, no address and no computer for god knows how long. Oh and I will only have about 200 euros to my name. I hope that my best friend doens't let me down because I think that the only thing that is going to keep me going is knowing I will get to see him at Christmas. It would be our second christmas together. And it seems fitting that since last time he hosted me I should host him. There is so much going through my head right now I cant even write it... I am going to go take some meds and catch some shut eye.


Love much and Keep Dreaming because sometimes it really does work out!

xoxoxo

ME