Paper cut from Hell

I have the worlds best ex roomie, Roomie. I want you to know how much I love you. I really don't know where I would be without you always being there for me.

I got the worlds worst paper cut today, actually the paper managed to take of a hunk of my finger. REALLY? Who amputates themselves with a piece of paper?

So I learned today that my pessimism about our society actually allows me to enjoy life more than others. I know this person and they hate living where they are so much that they are making themselves miserable. No one had been able to figure out why it was so bad. And the reason is that they truly believe that other places are better. I however, know that all places have their own faults as big as their positives . So that in the end you just have to make the best of where you are. Now I understand some people prefer cities, and other country. Those make a big difference, but if you move somewhere hoping that politically it makes a difference the truth is that there isn't that much difference. Political cultures are always changing, the publics out look is alwasy changing. Also because I have no faith in people puting any work in I understand that if you dont like the social or political culture you can change it. So few people believe in someting enough to change it, most live how things have always been, and when someone changes it they fight against that change for awhile but then they get tired of working and give up and live the change until it becomes how it alwasy was for that town.

I do not falut this person, they should live where they belive in it, however, they shoudl also not let that dictate their lives. They need to learn that even if they are not in their finaly wanted home, they are at least in a job, they at least have people who love them, and lord knows at some point they will get where they want to go. However, if they drive themselves into so deep a depression that they cant keep their life together then they will never be able tot get to this place, they have to hold it together long enought to get there. I have full faith that they will get there. They can make it, of this I am sure! They are one of the strongest people I know and they will make it they just need to not lose hope.

My amputated finger is throbing I am suffering from a ghost limb :(

I went for a good walk and cleared my head today. Oh the power of the Rhine. I wish I could have sat out there for hours, but one of the teachers I am working with has bronchitis and is still coming to work which means I am very likley to catch it from her and I am not going to weaken my immune system by sitting out in the cold.

Alright well I have some research to do for my classes tomorrow. One of my teachers has fogotten that she told me not to come to both lessons because I took on my own conversation course and gave me work for both lessons tomorrow. I am not very pleased. I am supposed to be able to sleep in an extra hour tomorrow but since that isn't going to happen I need to get done early tonight and get some sleep.

Alright, I totally forgot to post this and just realized it was still open, my work is done and the best news I just realized my countdowns are based on Michigan time, which means eveything this 6 hours closer than I thought!!!

Alright, I am going for real now!

xoxox

Today

So to distract us from that bit of my pouring, I was looking at what my name means, funny that Rae means Ewe. Both are three letter words! Kind of odd.
Also Worthy is 6 letters, of love is 6 letters, amanda is 6 letters the last name doesn't have any fun obvious mathness to it. I am sure that if I thought about it I could make it all work out but I just don't have that in me right now.

One of my favorite songs just started on the play list Sonata 14 (beethoven)

I think I am finally over my cold enough to start jogging again. That will be good. I found this multi generational house yesterday. I think I am going to find out if any of the old people speak English and then I can start volunteering there. I miss volunteering so much.

it is 11 pm I should be going to bed soon. I think I will sleep in tomorrow and go jogging in the afternoon. When I go in the am there is no light and i have to do it in the neighborhood, but in teh afternoon I can jog along the Rhine. That makes me feel better, the trees and the river are good for my soul.

Alright, my soul needs to go to bed. So that is what I am off to do.

I love you

Oh where has the time gone?

My second imported jar of Jif is almost empty. I still have a long time here.


My name means:
lovable, worthy of love
Ewe
Bright Forest.

One heck of a name there isn't?

I have been drinking tea like it is my job lately. Yum Yum tea, I seriously go through phases where I crave something. Like two weeks ago all I wanted were egg whites. This past week I have been all about the Tea. And like that is ALL I want I have to force myself to have anything else.

Have you ever noticed that light bulbs make a really annoying sound right before they burn out?


I am excited we are going to the pool tonight. Time to get my swim on. I grabbed my goggles when I was at home for Christmas which is good for I love swimming laps but the old people always get in my way and I hate doing the modified breast stroke so I can see the old people. now I can straight up do free style and I will be able to see so I can dodge the old people. While they are ten points when you are driving, they are negative points when you are trying to do laps. I am also looking forward to the hot tub. Only I wish it was hot like Americans do it. Our hot tub is a whole 10 degrees hotter than the pool so it feels pretty cool. Ohh Speaking of cold. maybe I will go to the outside pool. It is full of Natural salts or something which are super good for you. However, I dont know if it will be warm enough for me to brave the walk out to it.

Oh god I just learned a lot. But I will not write about it here because I made a promise to a very good friend just now not to discuss it. I just wish I could offer more help. You would think that since I was in a similar situation I could offer help. But while it looks the same on the ourside I am sure that they are very different in all reality. Since my problem centered around me, I was manifasting my issues into another form. And for her they seem to be much more legitimate. Alright, that is all about that.


I am really starting to hate Rosetta Stone, I am not sure if it just my computer or if it is the program but I am having so many problems. I just want to learn the language of the Country I am living in. Maybe I am just not a languages person.

So I pretty much cut one of my legs off shaving the other night. I forgot I had a new razor and now my left leg is missing a lot of skin. It is so stupid sharp blades cut so well that it is a while before they hurt or bleed so then you don't remember that you have a super sharp razor and keep shaving and by the time you start bleeding and hurting half of your leg is gone.

Alright I am going to go for a bit, I think I will take a short nap, fold the last of my laundry, hit the bank adn then get ready for the Twins birthday dinner.

night. Love you Miss you BYEE

Is this Jet lag or is it depression?

So I do not really want to admit that my seasonal depression is back. So I am just going to say that the reason I feel so down is that I am suffering from jet lag. I think that is a great excuse. Probably the best one I have ever had.

I have not eaten yet today so I think I am going to grab a sweat shirt and head down to say hello to Susanne and get an apple or something. I will be back in a bit.

Susanne was gone, where did she get off to?
I made some toast with the blueberry butter dad sent me. It was yummy and made me happy because it reminded me how much he loves me.

I need to figure out how to post pictures on this. I used to know the code but I have not used it for so long I have forgotten it. I guess that is what I will look up today. Yay for having a project. So at the dollar store I got speakers for my new I-Pod and I love them. They rock my world! YAY for the dollar store.

Alright I need to do a few things and sort some other things and I am getting ready to need to pee so I think I am going to go for a bit. I think Claudia is the only one who really reads this thing and I know she will approve of peeing so I don't feel bad.

Ps Claudia, I am seriously craving a trip when I get back. I think I have found us a good camping spot and we can use my tent. Since it is not a Camping sight just a place to camp I think we can invite some people to go with us since it will be free to camp there. Let me look some more but, I was thinking I have some extra tents and I think my mom still has our huge 2 room tent so maybe we will have a family camping trip, since not all of our family is hard core like us we might do that one for like 2 or three days keep it short for the non out doors types but what do you think?


xoxoxo
ME