Oh Where does the time go?

I fell asleep in the garden today. It was GREAT!! Oh the warm sunshine reaching deep into my body, warming the marrow in my bones! If I wasn't allergic to the sun I would have stayed out all day, but as it is I am feeling crappy and I cannot find my allergy meds.. oops.... Whatever, it has been so long since I have felt so warm and cozy I will deal with the icky feeling.


I am currently packing for my return trip to Berlin.. I have a serious over packing problem! I just don't know what to take and I want to take all of my shoes.. that is not good. I have acquired a lot of shoes since I have been here. Not that this should be a surprise. I love shoes so much.


Alright well I was really planning on writing a whole bunch more however, I lost the mood to write. I am back in the mood to dance. So I am going to go dance! Peace Love Yada Yada Yada...

xoxo
Me

So 2 posts one day I rock

I won vs the Internet! YAY

and I couldn't resist the change in play list! Hope you enjoy it for a bit. I will create a all requests play list so if you want to request songs I will cater to your wants and desires!

love you!

stupid internet

Tell me why will the internet work on the first floor of the house but not on the third. I am currently sitting in the sitting room (not one of myrooms) with my computer until the battery dies or Susanne gets home. Why? Because I need the internet for all of my daily tasks since rosetta stone no longer works on my computer the internet is all I have to do and to learn from. But now it is dead... WHY WORLD WHY?

So I am a softy... But can society afford to be?

So I am against the Death Penalty. An eye for an eye has never really worked for me. So, I will not lie I follow news on the death penalty via Twitter. However, the other day I found an article that really upset me. Someone on death row is claiming that long waits on death row is cruel and unusual punishment. Now on one side I agree with him. Knowing that you are just waiting to die is cruel and unusual punishment. However, he didn't claim that the physiological things that accompany waiting to be put to death are the cruel and unusual parts. In stead he is claiming that the conditions of Death row inmates is. REALLY. If you were not going to be put to death you would be kept in an isolated cell with limited time outside. YOU KILLED SOMEONE, we are not going to let you chillax with anyone and treat you like a king. But here is the kicker, reading his claims made me feel sorry for him. Can we really ever forgive someone who has killed someone else? Can we really punish them for the rest of their lives? If we were still in nature we woudln't care. If he had more power from killing someone we might try to kill him for his power. We know that is in our human nature, How can we punish someone so harshly when their crime is truly that they could not go against their nature. Now I know I am a hiprocryte because is someone killed someone I know I would want to see them suffer. However, I think I could also eventually forgive them, if they truly showed me that they diserved forgiveness. I just dont know. Sometimes I am such a bleading heart. I think that is what is going to be the end of me, I always forgive. Sometiems it takes a great deal of time. But I always forgive, and usually I do more than forgive. I convince myself that it was all my fault anyways. Which sometimes it really is, but I am not sure if it is ALWAYs my fault.

Alright what I really want to do is work on my new play list and get up the songs that get stuck in my head! :)

Talk to you soon

I am starting to think I post only for Claudia!

So I will make this to her:

Dear Roomie,

I don't know what I did to get a friend as good as you but I sure am lucky. One week until HK comes to visit. I am really super excited but worried I will not be able to give her the great time she deserves because I am so painfully poor.

If we cannot live in the Denver area how do you fell about the Chicago area? not necessarily in Chicago but in the area... Any cool places for you to work there? I ask becuaes I have possibly found a job there. I am just really really worried I might not get into that school. ANd they still have not sent me the information I requested which kind of makes me mad!

In Other news... yesterday was Spahr Mull day which means all the big stuff will be removed for free. So I hauled more things than one person should ever own in their whole life and now I cannot lift my arms above my head. OUCH! :)

Alright, I need to go find some thing to wake me up. I still have alot to do today.

Peace out Girl Scout!

Um I really have nothing else.

Reflections of an odd kind?

When I was a kid, I as terrified of the Toilet. Not that I was going to be flushed down but that a monster was going to come up. Like when I flushed it it opened a door to nightmare land and any creepy killer monster could crawl up and get me and take me back and no one would ever know what happened to me.

Due to this when I was a kid I used to finish using the bathroom put down the lid wash my hands open the bathroom door walk toward the toilet, position myself as far away as possible and still able to push the flush handle, I would flush it and then I would run as fast as I could into my room. Lock the door and press my back against the door. I would wait to see if I heard any noise and if I heard nothing for the count of 20 I would be ok. I would slowly open my door and then I would rush downstairs just in case the monster had hidden from me I needed to be downstairs with people and safe. When other people were upstairs I didn't have to worry so much. I knew I was the only one the monsters were after and everyone else could stop them. So when other people were upstairs I would finish using the restroom. Put the lid down, wash my hands open the door just a crack flush run across the bathroom reach the door open it step out close the door and try to act normal. I didn't want anyone to know I was scared. But I was terrified.

Later in life (just a few years) My best friend Krisitn Gumpher always made me go into the bathroom with her. I used to sit on the step between the shower and the sink that way I couldn't see her and she could have privacy. She was also scared of my bathroom. But not of the toilet, she was scared of the drawers under the sink. She thought there were puppets in them that were going to kill her.

The odd thing was that for both of us that was the only bathroom we were ever scared of. It makes me wonder where thoes bad vibes came from. I never told her I was scared of that bathroom so her fear didn't come from mine. Oh childhood fears. Funny how we outgrow some and not others.


alright that is all for now. I need to go to sleep. I am sick and can barely keep my eyes open and I need to get better before Heather gets here!

xoxooxoxoxo
Mandi Wood