Just Perfect

Today I had a perfect moment. One of those times when you are completely at peace with the world and with yourself. Today after I won the battle with the German Government I went into work for a couple of hours. I left at about 1:00. I was walking home and I decided to see if I could find a short cut. What I ended up was finding a road that led down hill straight to the Rhine and that wasn't busy like the road I live on. So now Picture this,

The fall wind is gently blowing so that I feel safe and warm in my sweater. I am looking down towards the Rhine and in the hills on the other side a storm is building. The most perfect dark clouds were rolling out from the hills towards the Rhine. It was cool enough that not many people were out side and the people who were had been sticking to the main road so it was just me, the fall wind and the Rhine. It was so perfect.

If I didn't already have a cold I would have waited there for the storm to reach me. However, I am on a quest to be better before the Red wine festival.

Tomorrow Susanne's son Markus gets here. Along with his girlfriend and her parents. . It should be a good time!

So A bit more explanation about the post of me being so angry. There has been this guy. Sort of. For awhile now. And true to me I didn't tell anyone about him. Not only because that is my MO but also because we were never officially anything. And true to form I really needed us to be something more and he really just wanted to be whatever we were at what ever time it was that we were it. So that blog was about me basically laying it out we need to be or we need to not be. I cannot be alone but taken at the same time. If I am going to be alone I want to have options I didn't need a commitment. We all know I don't like to fully commit I wasn't asking him to pick just me. I just needed to be more important. Sometimes i would be. Sometimes he would be wonderful and be there when i needed but as of late aka when i left there just was no longer time for me. And if he cannot still be there for me then I need to move on. I don't need the world. I just need a few days a week, really I would have setteled for one time a week that was just for me. If my friends can do it then this person who was something somewhat more should have wanted it.

But that is the story. I feel bad because someone I love thought it was about them and were upset. Its funny because I once promised to never write when i felt things like that unless I was writing them. And I have kept that promise and I always will. I might write about it later but I will always talk to them about it first. Next time you think this is the way I feel please remember the song I gave us and then you will know that I am not worried I am and always will be waiting. You are stuck with me forever. My best friend, My brother, My soul mate.

Alright well I took some meds to knock me out and they are kicking in. I think I am going to put a full day of work in tomorrow and then i think Anna Ulrik and I are going to the Sauna they are convinced it will make me feel better!

Alright sleep well!
ME