So my whole life I have enjoyed watching people. I love to see them and how they interact with their worlds. How they change the things around them or how they deal with things changing. One thing I have noticed through all of this watching is that there seems to be some people for whom things just happen. I would always love to watch their stories unfold because it seemed that no matter what they did or what actions they took the world had something else in mind for them. I always thought it would be interesting to be one of those people, a person who had things just happen to them, where things just always seemed to work out.
Yesterday night on my walk back from the birthday bash I was thinking about how I ended up here in Germany. That was when I realized that I am one of those people. I am someone who things just seem to work out for. Not all things mind you for I am still lonely and greatly struggling with a huge language barrier, but the big events that truly define a person seem to be those that just work out for me.
Take college for instance, I never wanted to go to college I had no desire for it, I never studied for my ACT and I almost in fact missed it having had stayed out too long the night before but in the end I had a huge fight with my mom and went to the first college that offered me a free application. Then I was at college, I am not a quitter so I stayed the full four years and everything just seemed to open more doors for me. I was the president of a ton of organizations and always managed to have a great E-board that took care of things for me and all i had to worry about was being the diplomat to the other organizations and to the executive offices of our school.
Then because I wanted my professor to stop bugging me I applied (and I had a rather poor application because I didn't care) for this program and now here I am in Germany. I had no where to live and my school was not replying to any of my contacts and suddenly I found a girl to take me in for free for a week. After that I found another home with all sorts of free things and a family for me.
Things seem to work out even when I have not been helping them out. I fear that because I have realized this truth things will stop working like that for me. However, if by leaving me it moves to someone else I would be just as happy. I think that life has gotten me to the point that I can take it on for a bit. I have been given more than my fair share.
It was just interesting to me that after watching this for so long it ended up that I was what had captivated me so.
alright well I am going to head to bed.
Best always
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