I have been thinking a lot. I think we have this whole idea of love wrong. I mean it isn't our faults we have been fed this fairytale ideal our whole lives. I mean to give us credit none of us really believe that some prince charming will come and find us and save us from ourselves. However, we do still have this idea that we can find one person who will fit with us and some how make us more complete.
Maybe that is all bullshit. I mean I think it is. We all keep saying that we are just happier when we are with someone but why is that? I think we have been trained to not be happy alone and that is just pure insanity. How can we be happier when we have to worry about making someone else happy.
I truly think that we can never find someone to be happy with until we can just be happy.
Now that gets me to my next topic. Dear world, I have been very happy alone for the last four years, Send me a man, he doesn't have to be perfect but he could be perfect for me that would be great! LOL
No I am sure I will find someone to torture for awhile. But I am done kissing toads looking for a good guy. I am ready to be wanted. So it starts now. Time to shed this cold hard and slightly ugly Shell.
As you read (if you read the other entry, you know I am coming to terms with all my dark twisty nature. I threw it out there, the things that you may have known and some things you probably didn't. And now, now I am ready to break free.
There is this idea swirling around in my head, it is so beautiful, I don't understand it it is just sweet sounds and images that make not sense right now. But I will figure it out.
I am so excited I figured out how to post pictures. I knew how to do it long ago and I have jogged my memory on how to do it again. I am sure if i used the tool bar it would have done it for me but I like using the code by myself. I like knowing I can boss my computer around sometimes.
Alright I need to go get my laundry finished and maybe take a nap....
I love you and hope your hearts lighten their load. Just let it go and you will be able to fly again!
1 comment:
"I truly think that we can never find someone to be happy with until we can just be happy."------This is true and this is a problem a lot of people have.
I've also discovered that when you combined being happy and being content with being happy alone that's always when someone comes along and messes it all up. My problem lately is I'm not content with being alone. haha. However I decided that you can still find someone in this state of mind, however it just proves to be harder.
Ok that's all. :D
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