What to say,

I am so tired I may fall over dead... I have a ton of stuff to get ready for tomorrow but I just don't feel like doing it and I cannot fall asleep so a nap is out of the question so I am just going to sit here in a state of I have no idea what is going on.

Yuck, I just though about the word sliced, I hate the word sliced.

I want to go back to the vineyard. It was so beautiful and so fun. And the boys were really cute.

I love kayaker Joe he is currently sitting atop the jar of Jif. mmmm JIf peanut butter. Seriously Claudia rocks for sending me such a wonderfully great package. I wore my sweet socks today, they are seriously the best things I have ever had on my feet. And Johnny looks hot chilaxing on my tv.

Well, I started this post two days ago and just keep adding more and more. I was going to write a bit but then I noticed the time. I need to go help Susanne in the kitchen. More to come later.


I like the word cackle.... I wish more people cackled so I could comment to my friends, I heard a really good cackle today. Or wow she had a wee little cackle.

Pineapple yogurt it tasty. Yum Yum Yum


So I have been writing this entry for days now and each time I just pick a random spot to start typing. So sorry that is it so disjointed, but you know.. I hope you enjoy it and its random life.

Just got back from my adult English class. They were so fun. Also I officially have a ride to the Airport now! YAY Christmas vacation is only a month away! How fun. Tomorrow I am going to have a weird schedule. All day at the airport again with the 8th graders, home for lunch at 3pm. I think I will go running sometime after lunch. At 7pm I am calling Papa, it is his birthday so I am calling him and Grandma to see how they are doing and to wish Papa a happy birthday. After that I will probably go to sleep have an alarm set so that a t 2am I can wake up to call Erin and wish her a happy birthday.

Random writing may also be included, in todays post, don't ask me what they are I don't know. I have tons of little bits of random writing I think it is working itself into a book. It seems to be a story about a guy who was madly in love with someone who died and he is having troubles moving on

Today I feel like I am a stranger, I don't know you well enough to write what I am feeling, I fear your judgment. I worry that I have to make a strong impression, that you are waiting for something great and I don't have greatness to give. I have been alone here for so long, and you expect so much from my journeys, when in truth I am just trying to survive. I don't live the life you want and for that I fear that you will shun me. I fear that you will disapprove that I just want to live. I cannot look you in the eyes any longer, the deepness of your disapproval is to grand for me to overcome. I guess I should just move on, but with so much of my heart I am still in love with you, and with the life we had together. I know it sounds silly but it is so important to have that sense of security that you offered to me.

Milk Rice Recipe (Kiri Bath)
A simple preparation of rice cooked in coconut milk, it is part of the traditions of the Sinhalese people. It is a must on New Year's Day, and on the first day of each month it is the accepted breakfast dish. It is usually served with hot sambals, but some prefer it with grated palm sugar. If you find it difficult to buy palm sugar, use unrefined black sugar as a substitute. Ingredients : Serves 4-5
2 cups 3 cups 2 cups 2 teaspoons 1 stick	Short grain white rice Water Thick coconut milk Salt Cinnamon, optional