Today was great!

I went on a grand adventure along the Rhine today thanks to Margitta who took good care of me. I met her through Tom. Tom has made my life soo great. It seems funny to think that I will probably never see him again. I ate lunch in a castle today. That was so awesome. I went all along the rhine we probably saw at least 8 castles. and a few monasteries. I got to go to a really cute Christmas town. Also we went in a cable car over yet another vineyard to another little town. I finally went to the Lorelie cliffs. Anyone who knows me well knows that the Lorelie is my favorite of all sirens. I actually learned more about one of her many stories today so that makes me super happy.

For those who don't know. My obsession with the Lorelie started early. The first perfume I ever had was a gift from my aunt and it was called obsession and had a poem on the inside of the label with a beautiful picture of Lorelie.

Turn the ocean and twist the blue
for I have found a love so true
alas my temptations he doth resist
salvation lies within the ocean mist

sexy siren of the sea Lorelie
I call to thee
Stir the storm and cast its might
my love gives up his heart tonight.

I know kind of dark and evil but I loved it and the picture of her was so beautiful. So this started me researching her. She has so many stories, some are about the cliffs, some are about the lake in the woods. I love them all. I love her her story is such a sad one, doomed forever to be alone, as dark and twisty as this sounds sometimes I feel that we are tied in this fate, always a friend never a love.

Today I got to sit on her cliffs I got to look out over her river.

I found out it is legend that the Devil himself carved those cliffs. That when he found out the gods were attempting to create such a beautiful valley he gripped on to the cliff face to hold the slate there and to this day you can see his claw marks from when the Gods finally dragged him away. But he got his cliff and he cursed her to be there forever to lure a great many to death. She even used to have whirl pools until they blasted away all of the reefs.


Anyway... That probably only interests me so I will move on.

I am thinking about riding my bike to Mainz tomorrow. It is the nearest big town. It will be about an hour ride but I think it will be worth it. I think I found a path by the river that I can take the whole way there. At least I think it goes to Mainz. I guess I will find out.

So I love being here and already I don't want July to come, but I am so lonely. I had a huge fight with one of my friends today. She was mad at me because I am having fun here and I don't miss home. But really what is there to miss. Yes I miss my family and friends, but I would miss them anyway, it wasn't like I was living with everyone. And I don't miss America. I don't have anything that is holding me home. I don't have a job, I don't have a prospect of a job, I don't have school, I don't have someone I am in love with waiting to greet me on the other side of the plane. All there is for me in America is being alone and debt. At least here I am alone in debt and have a great view!

I hope I meet more people my age. It is hard when I spend all day with teachers who are so much older than I am and students who are so much younger. I have met a couple people my age through Anna but I don't know them well yet.

Oh and I met the American Hater. She is LOADS of fun, no really I love being told how horrible i am.


So just after I write this about how I am lonely I have a great conversation with a great friend. And that conversation is what I am going to leave this off with. It is already too long but I want to have this conversation to look back on when I get sad.

Me:
I really do miss you I hope you know that, I miss talking to you.
Them:
Ditto, you kept me sane, you still keep me sane from 6000+ miles away.
Me:
You Bring me hope.
Them:
I try, hope is all anyone ever needs to keep going; hope in the smallest things can bring about the greatest happiness.
Me:
Its true and you keep me in supply, you really are one of the few people who can get to me smile a true smile.
Them: I like smiling and by the way, I have my smile back. But I miss yours and so mine isn't complete without yours.


I know it is super cheesy but it is just what I needed. Thank god for good friends. Even if I am alone I am never completely alone. I have the worlds greatest friends. This is just one of them.